Even I'm Not Sure What Happened

I apologize its been over 4 months since my last post. To be honest I'm not sure why I have lately strayed away from this blog. I think the bottom line is that I just lost motivation along with the fact that I'm not really sure what to write about half the time. Anyway life has been good lately and I hope to keep it that way.

Remix

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PityurWHMNE

Posted is a link to the song "We No Speak Americano" by Yolanda be cool and DCUP. I find it truly amazing that music today is based more off of its rhythm and beat rather than the lyrics that make it up. For instance look at songs like "Gettin' Over You" and "Like a G6." If you truly listen to the lyrics, they can't really be linked together to make sense and are often very shallow. What happened to music by Billy Joel and Bob Dylan? Their songs were truly stories that had a deep meaning and represented an experience in their lives. Don't get me wrong I love listen to new music and "fist pumin like a champ to it." I just find it very interesting how music has evolved from something so meaningful and deep to something seemingly shallow and almost un-passionate. 

Brotherly Love

For some reason I never quite understood why brother's relationships always seemed so complex. However recently I have had an epiphany about what it means to be a brother. You need to be the hardest soft guy in the world. 

It is nearly impossible to maintain a sensible brotherly loving relationship while still being the competitive dirt bag you really are inside. Using myself as an example, the other day my brother and I were playing basketball at the gym with some other kids. I was guarding my brother and he drove down the lane and put up a strong lay-up. So what do I do? I shoved the ball right back down his throat. I am two years older than him and I know all of his moves. I felt awful for doing it but the bottom line is that I was torn betweed two competely different roads. One road led to a sensative more loving deciscion while the other lead to the more competitive decision. Being who I am I contemplated competitive split-second decision and this is the realization that I have reached:

Because I am the older stronger sibling, my nature is to try to remain the authoritative child in the house. To do this, I will have the strong urge to make every decision that makes me look like the stronger and dominant older brother. 

What motivates this strong urge you might ask? Well it is actually 2 reasons:

First, being a personal issue of competitiveness. Second because my strong attitude and lifestyle is simply a mask covering the true reason for my fake facade, fear. I am the older dominant brother and my greatest fear is losing that role which I have come to know and love over the years of my childhood.

Begining

Now is the time to start my writing. I have only one direction to go and that is up. I've everything to gain and nothing to lose; an infinite win-win situation. This blog will be aimed towards developing me as a writer and eventually I will become a better one. Hopefully it will allow me to ferment my skills while I learn new techniques and experiment with new styles. In the end, my ultimate goal is to have good strong entries with my own voice from which I write.